my ass jiggles with sorrow

Being sad makes you fat, and being fat makes you sad. How unfair! I wish I could be one of those people who expresses frustration through throwing oneself into work (or workouts, as it were). Unfortunately, I’m not. Being sad makes me sedentary.

On the plus side, I have stopped “sadness binging.” This is a good thing. For about a few days after entering Phase 3 of the HcG protocol, I binged and gained. I realised that my grandma wouldn’t want me eating myself into oblivion, but I knew the HcG diet worried her too. So I started eating clean – and I feel so much better! I’ve been staying within the 1000-1200 calorie range, and have dropped back down to my HcG end weight. So, that’s good. The issue now is getting out and moving.

Sulking won’t banish the jiggles, and neither will diet. I need to push myself physically. And I think that will help my emotional state too. After all, sloth breeds discontent.

PS Yes, I am aware that the real saying is “familiarity breeds discontent.” I just like saying “breeds discontent.”

low energy

Ugh, not going to the gym this morning was the WORST thing to do! My sister and I were meant to go at 7:oo AM, but she was too tired. She can go later today, and I can’t. i should have just gone by myself, but I didn’t. I went back to bed. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Not only did I not correctly set my alarm (therefore waking up about 45 minutes before work), but I’ve been low energy all day as a result… And I didn’t eat breakfast because I slept too late! Blah.

I also forgot to take my HcG this morning, which can’t be helping matters. Tomorrow I’m DEFINITELY going to go… And I’m going to eat my big high-protein breakfast afterwards, too. Because I’m sick of feelin loooooow. And I have to work tonight, too. Bah, that’s what I get for being lazy!

Round 2, Phase 2, Week 2: Results

Well folks, today was not a good day for me. I maintained my weight, again. This has been a really hard week, because my weight loss slowed to a crawl. I’ve been trying to think of ways to increase my protein count, but it really looks like I can’t do it without slowing or stopping my weightloss altogether! It’s really depressing, because here grad is right around the corner and I’m still a @$%*! cow.

Sorry for all the negativity here today, but I’m not pleased with myself or my results right now, so I’m really not in a good place. Maybe next week will be better. I’ll just have to remember my ultimate goal and let my short-term goal pass: 135 by July 17th. I can do it, I just have to stay focused. So, without further adieu, here are my crap-tastic results for this week:

phase 2 recipe: coconut bark for the uninitiated

I should really start taking my own photos. ...But I'm so laaazy!

Alright, so I’m down 1.5 pounds today! Yay. I think it has to do with the coconut bark I ate yesterday. I found the recipe here, but I’m going to tweak it a bit to fit my tastes. This is what I’m proposing (I’ll try it out tonight or tomorrow to see what I think):

Coconut Bark Retooled

Ingredients:

4 Tbsp. coconut oil
3 packets of Sugar Twin (or other calorie-free sweetener)
1 tsp. unsweetened cocoa powder
1 Tbsp. skim milk
1/2 tsp. vanilla

Directions:

1. Microwave the coconut oil for about 10 – 15 seconds, until partially liquefied.
2. While microwaving, mix sweetener and cocoa powder, then add to the oil. Add vanilla and stir.
3. Finally, add skim milk and stir quickly to prevent setting.
4. Spoon into individual silicone baking cups or candy molds, or onto baking parchment/tin foil. Put in refrigerator for about 1 hour to set. One half of the candy is a serving.

Nutritional Information:

Calories: 17
Simeon’s Allocations Used: milk (all day), cut out Melba toast to balance the carbs therein.

NOTE: Now, you might be like “WTF Kira? Coconut oil is super high in calories!” Yeah, I know that. But you don’t count it because it can’t be properly digested by the body, and isn’t absorbed into the bloodstream. In other words, it’s a free fat… So it’s safe for Phase 2. The downside is too much of it will give you the runs (because it isn’t properly digested), so don’t overindulge!

dizzy

Whoo, I need to sit down!

So I woke up today dizzy as all heck. I realised that, contrary to what I had thought, the tofu I was eating only had 5g of protein per serving. In comparison, 100 grams of chicken breast has 23g of protein. So I’m definitely suffering from a protein deficiency here. From now on I’m doubling my servings of tofu (from 85g to 170g) to ensure I at least get more protein. The tofu I’m using is so low on calories and fat that I can actually triple it before reaching chicken-proportions, but I’ll hold off on that for today, and see if the extra serving helps at all.

I’m also going to go buy some more liquid egg whites. 1 cup of those has zero fat and very few calories, but lots of protein, so that’ll be a nice change for me.

Anyway, only down .5 pounds today. I’m going to try drinking more and hope that helps!